*...reflect...*

You hide away, behind the music and lights..friends and late nights..drugs and beer rides..finding comfort in the moment, but not holding on to anything for fear its true nature will be revealed and thw joy it once brought will be replaced by guilt or shame....your paranoid of this situation just barely enough that when asked you give a fake name.. so discusted by your past, things you just let..so ashamed of your beauty, you attack your wrist and face leaving you too weak hearted to take the meaning of your name to give access to a helpful soul..for. so longg you hid behind self made walls of a secret depression, surrounded by a similar feeling crowd so your loneliness is masked by numbers ironically ..but when the lights are off and the only light is the glow of your cell, you cry because you know this isn't happiness, this isn't love, this isn't healthy, this isn't fair, this isn't what you wanted, this isn't ...............your fault..my heart is with you..im right here beside you..my soul breaks in the wake of memories that bind me, I am lost in a sea of regret, burried in a grave of remorse for the help I can't provide, I water crops leading to the harvest of depression with my tears, if I never again see you here, ill meet you there...

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